Monday, June 30, 2008
And I became more awake after the jerky bus ride and umpteen times of head banging on the glass. The weather was good or so I thought at Bukit Timah and all I can think of is sleeping on what position in bed. Rain and I still have a long way to go it felt like a drag with blurry vision and uncooperative traffic lights. 30 seconds is all I took to decide against taking the shelter on the underground path. Can be well soaked in the falling liquid to motivate myself to shower before lying dead on the bed. I like it. How stream of thoughts of the yesterdays, todays and tomorrows fall. All the umbrella people look stupid cringing away the little droplets. Excited for exams and afraid if I can walk through tues and keep the promises I made. School make me think of Katong Laksa and there is so much to tell Ariff. I was been jerk shock of a bird that look too stationary at first. And I realise I am fucking fucking cold. And hope I don't fall sick at this point oh god.
It isn't so bad after I bathe and talk on the phone like for an hour so. I realise I am drifting away from some of my friends and I miss them. It felt superb to hear the familiar caring voices before finally sleeping on my own bed and forget about the positions I thought of.
Woke up at 11pm and felt weird with the silent and there is something which I can't explain. I cn quite figure this routine of late night of laptop whoring which kinda wasn't what I had for some time. It felt comforting yet like a fall back. Seriously I start to feel pelting of dark waves for the months ahead. Acting against what I believe is the hardest. Once you got the the sweets you know how bland it is without sugar.
Trish Fox Said. 12:24 AM
Sunday, June 29, 2008
Don't Mess With The Zohan.
Finally oh pussy oh finally.
The best lame shit if you are thinking this is fucking lame.
Life has never been better with Zohan and fun.
Home party at Bunny's now.
And everyone has something against the folks which we hope they will grow understanding.
Trish Fox Said. 1:14 AM
Wednesday, June 25, 2008
Situation change people change. And a little trigger a post a note a flying bird can make you feel differently. Pray its permanent.
For what we are in search never comes for what we hate come round and makes you think. A matter of perception is a power tool in our life. Lets see and rephrase it.
What we search in search should not be *ust mere fantasy but effort filled and what we hate may not be *ust how it is seen a picture of a sore artist.
How Nikki Sixx Life is Beautiful cure the upheaval.
You can't quit until you try
You can't tell the truth until you learn to lie
I now something that you don't
I done something that you won't
As Im waiting for my hearse
im going to live
Trish Fox Said. 6:26 PM
Monday, June 23, 2008
I tell you I love to study for exams. I feel........ ALIVE (I am fucking serious)
My keyboard is menstruating there is something wrong with the letter after 'i'
My whole notes is one kid works since that letter keep popping out without me hitting it.
I want to go over I want to go over to takeshi kaneishiro house not tony leong or *ay chou
Ahhh see I can't type that letter but it appear when I dont want to.
I hate my tag and I am going out to study. The time now is 11pm. KNNBCCB.
I am still going.
Tell me why you blog?
Are you guilty of blogging for that specific person to see or it is really an online open diary?
If you say your reason for your blog is to pass unsaid message I rest my case.
Hello I am Fox and I digress to code geass R2.
OHHHHH talkijng about code geass R2 make a non believer of anime watch anime. No I still don't love anime yet. bujt code geass is good. TMD Im so rude to put it in small letter. Its Code Geass! I am going cos of Code Geass R2 not 'mao mao chong'
Trish Fox Said. 10:49 PM
Friday, June 20, 2008
Sometimes I wonder if you appreciate what I had done for you. Is that taken for granted or an of course thing? I called cos we gone through so much together and always been there wiping each other tears giving words of encouragement touch that tell so much how we care.
In the state I am in not that I fancy any pity, I thought you will care, but maybe again my things are still too small to be taken notice.
I got resentment and suspicious. Thanks. Once is alright but twice is really hurtful.
From the start I was never beautiful in your eyes.
At the end we eye each other with lots of anger and mistrust.
You know what. I love you I love you. I hate the things you do to me hate the way how you see me now and hate the way you ignore me. Hey it don't feel good you know. I would like to tell you I hate drama in our relationship I want us not just me to be happy. You seem happier without me that is.
Pictures Update.
18th June Thursday
After leaving Titus place.
Doing my assignment and Chariot studying for his exams.
With a table filled with funs. He have to be a king somehow.
A very clever lighter. Used this to light cigarettes.
RIBENA RIBENA!!!
Self explanatory. Things isn't what you seem it is like.
19th June Thursday
Grocery shopping at Ang Mo Kio hub.
When asked what he want to buy at the sausage section he said: the grapes~
And a long discussion on sausages.
Sparkling ribena taste cooler. Bought another two bottle when I already have 2 in my bag :D
It taste better than it look seriously. Or maybe Im just too hungry.
The salmon taste like wow!!! I finish it :D
Supposing this man should be studying but he kept checking his war games.
And I have to excuse my youtube watching for him~
The mot war concerning man I have ever came across.
He thinks he look like an angel here.
In the wee hour I am a working woman with a good for nothing man went down to buy potatoe chips. Its funny how have to dress up just to buy potatoe chips. And then tom yam noodles with Hellsing anime.
Morning I am the nice singaporean maid who cooked the ham bacons and egg. Then left for my country after one cooking.
You know thats what friend are for when suffer night of incessant insults and bully and when morning come stomachache pills are spill into your mouth and force to listen to me talk.
Trish Fox Said. 6:22 PM
Wednesday, June 18, 2008
Alot unexpected. There was no crabs and salmon as planned. But it was really fun when having pizzas laptop karoke ribena in the late afternoon with Chariot. Had some friendly harmful attacks and fights which he won easily in his self delusional state. I seriously never know what was coming that night.
Was exported to Titus' condo at Sin Ming. Got some real karoke fun and poolside voyeurism(Under my instigation). Maggie Mee and some smart man idea of walking to the prata shop which is so far as if in Pasir Ris Dog farm on feet. The coolest thing for me is that Titus is a superb host and his house has enough rooms to make sure each of us are comfortable.
Suppose to be asleep even before daylight but lian version of 'falling in lust' (Cigarette Sex) cause a mass insomnia and end up talking to daylight about ghost~ Slept really at an unearthly hour.
It was really sweet for Trish Titus Bunny Yong Lian and Chariot to celebrate with me.
Two days before the day after birthday. Hardwork comes with fun and then hardwork. The inevitable vicious cycle. So its study study study with long breaks of verbal abuse.
*Chariot owe me pictures here*
I guess the most beautiful thing had turned bittersweet. I'm happy to see you and for you allowing me to. And deeply touch and appreciate the gift. Its not the cost the brand that make it special it is you and the fact that you had actually take notice on a statement I made which I never thought anyone would register it in their mind. I really want to be there with you but circumstances doesn't direct me that way. There are no one causing the turns. I am sorry.
Was exported to Titus' condo at Sin Ming. Got some real karoke fun and poolside voyeurism(Under my instigation). Maggie Mee and some smart man idea of walking to the prata shop which is so far as if in Pasir Ris Dog farm on feet. The coolest thing for me is that Titus is a superb host and his house has enough rooms to make sure each of us are comfortable.
Suppose to be asleep even before daylight but lian version of 'falling in lust' (Cigarette Sex) cause a mass insomnia and end up talking to daylight about ghost~ Slept really at an unearthly hour.
It was really sweet for Trish Titus Bunny Yong Lian and Chariot to celebrate with me.
Two days before the day after birthday. Hardwork comes with fun and then hardwork. The inevitable vicious cycle. So its study study study with long breaks of verbal abuse.
*Chariot owe me pictures here*
I guess the most beautiful thing had turned bittersweet. I'm happy to see you and for you allowing me to. And deeply touch and appreciate the gift. Its not the cost the brand that make it special it is you and the fact that you had actually take notice on a statement I made which I never thought anyone would register it in their mind. I really want to be there with you but circumstances doesn't direct me that way. There are no one causing the turns. I am sorry.
Trish Fox Said. 8:01 PM
Monday, June 16, 2008
You see I am always excited by new things. Intrigued on what they hold and wrapped within them. If we ever take just seconds more to linger and appreciate to see things beyond and get engage with the new energy.
Today in school only Ariff came and we talk over the so familiar scenario of butts and smokes. I suddenly realize the privilege and joy for being able to listen. Which I don't mean literally. For someone to share their struggles emotions and life. We love to talk about ourselves but forget about the beauty of listening.
To know the amount of emotions that stir the tears to know enough insights for the determination to kill for the sake of living to be able to be one of the million sperms that survive.
If we can fight the other million others back then how weak can we be?
Anyway Birthday is like hours later. Which I think birthday should be celebrated for our victory of Sperms War and the woman who gave us the cup of life as a prize.
My Birthday Wish:
-A cake with a picture of sperm holding a victory flag. Not too much vanilla and no real sperms is allowed over the cake.
Today in school only Ariff came and we talk over the so familiar scenario of butts and smokes. I suddenly realize the privilege and joy for being able to listen. Which I don't mean literally. For someone to share their struggles emotions and life. We love to talk about ourselves but forget about the beauty of listening.
To know the amount of emotions that stir the tears to know enough insights for the determination to kill for the sake of living to be able to be one of the million sperms that survive.
If we can fight the other million others back then how weak can we be?
Anyway Birthday is like hours later. Which I think birthday should be celebrated for our victory of Sperms War and the woman who gave us the cup of life as a prize.
My Birthday Wish:
-A cake with a picture of sperm holding a victory flag. Not too much vanilla and no real sperms is allowed over the cake.
Trish Fox Said. 4:41 PM
Not nice to start a new blog post with fuck but really fuck.
I forgot my password for my last blog and I hate thinking of new names or titles.
So everything are kept simple now even the password.
Well today was rather amazing I must say. A concoction of feelings like love lust likes disappointment sadness depress happy glad proud jealousy excitement fulfilled hilarious impressed touched. I think there are more but these are the really distinct ones. It doesn't come with explosion of many events but just two separate meetings and home.
Whatever it is I couldn't believe how such a beautiful thing/person turn out to be so twisted of its own word. A fall over the line that separate the opposite. It is also a fall of faith and hopes. Just the same compare to a Christian realizing actually all along Jesus is Lucifer.
The exact time now is one day after father day and one day before my birthday. I have Yoshinoya Father Day Set at Junction 8 which I did not actually have it with my dad. So I have to tell Chariot Happy Father Day which the cashier gave us a weird look and double checked with us if it was a takeaway. Honestly Yoshinoya doesn't taste that bad. I didn't know it has a sky garden in J8 and its not like I been there often. But its not really that sky since there is something above.
I wonder about my hunger. When I got home a make a real neat spicy udon and down two crabs.
I forgot my password for my last blog and I hate thinking of new names or titles.
So everything are kept simple now even the password.
Well today was rather amazing I must say. A concoction of feelings like love lust likes disappointment sadness depress happy glad proud jealousy excitement fulfilled hilarious impressed touched. I think there are more but these are the really distinct ones. It doesn't come with explosion of many events but just two separate meetings and home.
Whatever it is I couldn't believe how such a beautiful thing/person turn out to be so twisted of its own word. A fall over the line that separate the opposite. It is also a fall of faith and hopes. Just the same compare to a Christian realizing actually all along Jesus is Lucifer.
The exact time now is one day after father day and one day before my birthday. I have Yoshinoya Father Day Set at Junction 8 which I did not actually have it with my dad. So I have to tell Chariot Happy Father Day which the cashier gave us a weird look and double checked with us if it was a takeaway. Honestly Yoshinoya doesn't taste that bad. I didn't know it has a sky garden in J8 and its not like I been there often. But its not really that sky since there is something above.
I wonder about my hunger. When I got home a make a real neat spicy udon and down two crabs.
Trish Fox Said. 2:39 AM
